Last time Mark deployed, I took the girls to get ice cream after his plane took off. I planned to do this again this time, only not today!! But sadly, today was ice cream day.It is a funny turn of events, the word "deployment" keeps changing meanings from 1. There is no way the bands will deploy (when we signed up) 2. Well, you'll deploy but only one time while you are overseas to 3. oops, you're deploying again, and your in charge of the group, AND you'll be gone for Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and Bailey's birthday. Isn't being in the military rewarding?! Huh?!
What is so frustrating about this is Mark got word last Thursday, "There is NO way you are flying out on Monday. It will be later that week. Call at 9:00 on Monday to find out." Mark called at 9:00 this morning and was told the whole group is flying at 1:00 and to be at the terminal by 11:00. You have GOT to be kidding me?!
This day could not have played out worse. Had to have a friend grab the girls from school, break the news, throw them into the car and drop Mark off. Are you kidding me? You really want to put 2 kids through that! I really wish the person that screwed that one up could have watched me peel my 6 year old from her Dad while she is sobbing, "Please Daddy, don't leave me!".
I'm pretty angry more than anything. I guess that just goes to show, don't put off anything . . . ever, when it comes to the military. Don't tell the kids we're carving pumpkins with Dad tonight, and we will have movie night before you leave. I feel robbed of one last night that we could prepare. I would have stayed awake last night to listen to him breathe by my side a little longer. I would have invaded his personal space all night and all morning just to smell his smell and feel his touch.
But now I'm home, it is late, I'm mentally exhausted from trying to rebuild my girls all day long, I'm doing his laundry so that I can put it in a box to mail to him because we didn't even have time for that. Tonight, I'm angry. Tomorrow is a new day . . .
9 comments:
Oh Leslie! I am soo soo sorry! For you and Mark and your girls! This is so unfair! Please know you are all in our prayers and we love and support you from here!
You are a strong woman, and sometimes having to be that sucks!
I love you!
Meriam
Oh my goodness! My heart is breaking for you!!!! I'm sitting here in my kitchen bawling my eyes out while reading this. I feel so far away and so helpless for you! Please know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers. Sending lots of love to you.
I'm so sorry to hear about your departure with Mark! I'm sending you big hugs from me and the boys! You are always in my prayers...stay stong girl!!
Love ya! Darci
I wish that I had something witty to say to make you smile. I wish I could be there for you, Bailey and Mckenna! I miss your family so much! I know.... you could move to Utah while he is deployed and live with me ;) !!!
Kassie
I am SO SO SORRY, Leslie! That is really unfair, and I can't believe that they did that to your family! Someone really screwed up! I'm sorry that you got cheated out of your last few days with Mark. I wish him safe journeys and here's hoping that they make up for this by bringing him home early. Take care and please email me whenever you need to vent or talk. I'm here.
Hi leslie--I couldn't even finish reading the entire blog entry before starting to cry...Laurel is right it's just no fair...sending prayers and good thoughts for you and the girls...and I'll send ya anything you need, just let me know. keep strong as I know you will--I know you can do this but also --admitting it's hard as crapolla-- and this again will make you supermom
Jamie
Reading this post just made me feel so sad. I'm sorry that you and the girls had to say good-bye this way.
Definitely thinking of you, and know you'll pull through "tomorrow" cause those girls need you and they have the best mom! The countdown begins!
Leslie, that is the tough part of the military life. So sorry it couldn't be the way you planned it. I am a little confused though, because I thought he was deployed before but then he was back, or can that happen again?
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